Tired till blurred.

yeap...was damn tired tdae morning.i woke up abit late.thn go MRT dere wait for Zk kor,ben di and xiao hui jie.but ben and XH oready reach ler.so waitied for ZK which was DAMN~~ slow.thn,jie want gib di present for his b'day. so sweet~^^ but she didn hav the courage-.-'' so turn out mie n her give him pressie=.= i tinkin of singing b'day song when skool reopens.haix...i noe wads his wish for his b'dae oready lo...wished that the wish will shi xian.

thn do animation.didn rly do much.jux blast music n went you tube blahs.
thn got choir. hee hee~ i was rte to look forward^^ it was fun^^ yea~choir's fun when chen's not scary.its fun and @ the same time,we learn things.hope tt choir will continue to b liddat barhs~ :D
btw,the theattret was damn cold! brr...hands gonna freeze!

thn went to blurking house thr.walao..ZK wait a little while cannot one.kip smsing mie call mie faster. thn i took 165 and alighted 1 stop after his stop-.-'' the previous time,i alighted 1 stop before his stop. walao...didn learn frm my mistake nia.had to wok a stretch of road.smr when crossin road tt time,i didn noe i was jay wokin till the car honk @ mie! O.o heng it stopped..if not...w-o-w. thn 2 indian man stared @ mie.siao! blek blek blek! they kip staring @ peepo nia.bian tai!!! thn went bball court.bought peach ice blended^^ :D thn met dese 2 gurls.they were tokin bout JM. turn out tt they noe QH too-.-'' lol.thn ZK kena left out cos QH played wif the 2 gurls.i did my solfage;wif ZK's help.
THANKS A MILION,ZK!! :D :D :D i suck @ lookin for major or minor.

thn...dunno y...actually i noe y.but..secret. i felt uncomfortable being there and dread being there.the scene makes mie...yeah... thn i call ZK leave me alone first.he was reluctant.thn i sae when i emo i will start tokin to myself and he finally shoo. >< but...aft a few seconds,blurking came n 'pluck'm fone out of my hand-.-'' he wanna delete the pic!! NO! i wont let you XP thn the 2 gurls played themseves n drank his water.and he drank my water(peach) -.-'' thn my plain water was used up for ZK's handwashing. so...yea. thn tryin to chiong finish solfage but didn..T^T D: thn he began his ti siao-ing agn.use ball hit mie-.-'' so i beat him. thn ltr he use bball hit my head n blahs.jx continue hittin.almost wanna throw the peach ice blended @ him-.-''

aniwaes,went hme.cookin instant noodle for bro. scorched my own pinky><>< @ least this no scar lyk the one on my left wrist. that one is burnt by iron!>< hais...hu call mie tink of wad happened n the defination n loads of other tings? i stupid la. haiz.... tdae nvr swim nor cycleD: i nid exercise to help mie de-stress!!!!!!!!
aniwaes,ZK taught mie smth. mayb is i tink too much. mayb i'm jux lying to myself? mayb is cos we hang arnd much? if that's the reason..its gonna b easy. cos tt simply means,he's very close n importat to mie.only one of my BFF.

but thn,ZK added.. if i kip seein the past(seeing past msges),tinkin of it every second,hurtin when he did mini wrongs,sacrificing blahs,means i lyk him. so....wad answer did i derive?

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nothing.
totally nothing.
and it sucks.
cos i havta be waiting.
AGAIN.
and suffering cos i cant heal myself when i dont get what i needed from him.
how am i s'pose to heal him when i cnt even take cre of myself?!
and wad i wanted was so simple!

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i still have no answer from wad i wanted to hear.

P.S: my ah yi,stella,just gave me loads of post-its!!!! ^^ :D