Dedications

Days weren't smooth at all for me this few days...and especially today.
Results werent good at all so far.
CA2 has ended.
Broke down really hard today. Shant go into details as to why. i dont think i even need these posts to remember what happened in future since its etched deeply into my memory. The last time i cried this hard and this long was when grandfather's mum died which was years ago.
i look horrible and felt even worse.

Firstly, i would like to apologise to whoever who saw the scene and got a scare during recess.

Secondly, i want to dedicate this post to alot people.

Gordon Chay: He was the very first one to watch me start crumbling into a heap when i couldnt keep up with my composed face anymore. i was on the phone with zhe kai, asking him to come find me. Then i just started eating up my words and all. It was Gordon who noticed i wasnt okay and comforted me.

Kaiwen: Second person who saw i think. she asked me if i was okay which i said yeah while crying like some big baby and she corrected me right there at the spot that i wasnt okay haha (: Also, a huge big thannks to her if not for her, it would be impossible for zhe kai and clarice to come find me cuz she helped took over duty at the walkway with some others.

Ashely & Xiao Hui: She accompanied me and had her arms around me. Although it just made me cry harder but still it was comforting. She was around till zhe kai and clarice came. i think xiao hui too if 'm not wrong. so yeap, thanks both of you.

Zhe Kai: For rushing over asap after getting my call to check on me and comfort me despite being busy and accompanied me till the very end and trying to cheer me up and giving me 'lectures' (; If not for you i prob have done quite some silly things.

Clarice: Thanks for rushing over with zhe kai immediately. and immediately comfort me and cheer me up. LOL sorry i made you go into a loss of what to do :X if not for you i prob would have done even sillier things. Thanks for stopping me in what i did in the toilet. sorry to let you witness this horrible scene :X oh and for accompanying till the very end.

Melissa: I know you also rushed up upon receiving the news. Thanks for comforting me and stopping what i did in the toilet. sorry for letting you witness that horrible scene :X Thanks for accompanying till th very end(;

Zhi Hao: LOL i know you dont know the full story yet but i have to thank you for not making things difficult for me. You have no idea how relieved i am(; Thanks for your concern about why i cry. i'll be fine. i promise.

Chloe: And you babe! you were th one who calmed me down and got me start thinking from his point of view, or your point of view. whichever ;P and then giving me th peace and quiet i need during lesson time and hugging me first thing when you saw me and all. If not for you my eyes might have already been spoilt from crying hehe... oh and for creating another opportunity to talk properly (;

Chia Ee: Yours was rather surprising! But still, that few seconds of interacting was sufficient enough to perk me up. feeling much better to know that at th very least, 'm not alone. Thanks alot(;

Lastly, i would also like to thank Andrea Yuan Ye Pearl Jeslyn ZhiYong Yulong YunJie Maurice Shuek Chrystal Mrs Seck Benjamin Goh Regina(meow) and all the others who asked me if 'm alright and all.

 Life's always brighter with people like you guys and those mentioned above (':