on the same boat

've just came back from kai wen's blog.
read her recent blog post about her arguments and found it rly similiar to what happened in my house recently.
one diff was that her mum texted her whereas it was me who texted my mum and my dad.
the word prostitute was used on me too. but by my parents.
my parents would say "you can stop studying already right?" but it wasnt meant to be a qns.
they KNOW how much i like schooling. how much i love learning. they know bout my future plans...to go abroad to study. and because they know, they're using that to tie me down.
perhaps this is their only way to keep me by their side. to educate me, to guide me thru life.
because 'm one who flies all around, one who hasnt been exactly a good daughter..at all.
Many has told me that i have to communicate with my parents so that they'll understand me more.
but frankly speaking, i dont know what to talk about.
i guess their last understanding of me stopped when i was in P2.
cuz P3, i wanted to commit suicide and they knew nth at all. they forced me to go for tuitions after tuitions.
P4, i was pratically in my own world. i read and i study. all in my own room
P5, i was just hanging out in schl. 2 years of not communicating with em had made me not want to communicate with them already.
P6, that was when i was rebellious. so let alone proper talking.

've nver ever ever hugged my parents before. not in my memory...
've never said before 'i love you'
god this is such a wordy post.
gotta stop here.
kinda feeling emotional...