i guess i havent been sensitive enough to know how you felt and what did i do wrong.
there's this awful big gap between us that i really regret not patching it up with u.
the rumour bout me hating you is totally false. and i can swear on that.
cuz i always loved you and really see you as my bff. but i know that u're in a dilemma now and reading whatever i write now will only make you feel worst. 
but seriously, i didnt know 've done something wrong. n i also didnt know that u've given me so many chances. but right now, if only u could just tell me straight forwardly like how we always used to talk like, i would thn know and reflect on myself. 
'm really sorry 've hurt u so deeply. i know and saw for myself how hurt u are. 
i know you need time and 'll give u time.
just know that,i still love you.
i believe, you being so sad is not only cuz of recently this rumour.
i think, 've been doing loads of things that has been hurting you for these past few months. or maybe a year already.
right, 'll be waiting for you okays?
face me when you're ready to confront me. i wont force you or give u any more pressure.
i want you to be happy.
i dont want to be the cause of all the unhappiness you're experiencing now.
sigh... i miss those days when we were always tgt...