>:<

my parents are paranoid!
alot!
they c one guy come into th hse
thn they fumin lyk hell
scold mue.

wth..want chase mue outta th hse.
sae wad if i dwn study,
i cn b mum,go find dad
pack my tings n leave th hse.
am i rly important to thm?
thn mom sae i kip shuttin myself in my room.
yea yea~!
i m i m!
th mre she sae,th mre i gonna b in my rm.
srsly,she wanna chase mue out

iish jux someone comin into th hse,
i noe i'm in th wrng tt i didn let her noe.
but she didn hab to sae i in love or anitin.
althought i m.
she wanna chase mue out.
makes mue rly wonder...
m i rly hers? theirs?
hais..
n i expect,if they read tiish,
i'm goin to sae buh-bye to world.

mom sae gimmue abit freedom n i go overboard
has she wonder,
iish cos she nvr rly gave mue b4?
i rly wanna jux shut myself up.
shut my stupid mouth.
nvr evr gonna tok to thm bout anitin bout wad i experience.
jux let thm noe wad they nid to noe.
others..i jux kip to myself.

and for one point of time,
i felt lyk...
slashin agn?!?
i noe..
i mean..
not on th wrist or anitin..
my penknife thrown away aniwaes..
but thr's a ting called compass.
or,sharp objects...
no no..
i wnt do tt....?
shyt,now if stella ish readin,i'm dead.
nvm..thr's sme places of th human body,
tt ppl cnt c.
th waist is one of it.

am i going crazy???
tink so..
th mre thay wanna kip mue to thm,th mre i wanna struggle to escape.
th mre they want mue to behave myself,th mre i dowan.
they want mue act tiish way,i act another.
i'm lookin for trouble arn't i?
i noe they love mue too much..
tt y they're so protective.
but,i'm sure they also noe,lovin too much can kill..?