settled...?

was scared to meet him.n all along,i was prayin tt he wld come to school cos tt means he's ok.thn he came n i froze.thn monkey sae he b-hind n i jumped.idk y my fan ying all so big.everytin was defintely not gud for mue.yest,i hope he doesn go facebook n he did.tdae mornin,we get a new attendance book.in frnt,i wrote the teacher's name as" my myra martin" EO spotted the mistake in the afternoon>< thn,i was writin the names down in the colum by the side,i missed out brien.so i had to correction-taped every one else's name aft his.thn i wrote sean as female-.-'' shit shit shit...damn damn damn...everytin is so~ wrong.

i guessed hu is tt 3rd person.and was correct.mayb euu treat mue lyk how damien saes bout his 2GF n e 1 he rly like..? a 'security'.... when i found out,i felt so stupid man...n i didn wanna gib euu time.cos if euu cn do this now,euu cn also do it ltr.thn end up,is stiu i get hurt.i wasn rly in a gud mood.was emo-ing in science class n i seriously meant emo-ing.damn..i tink euu saw.thn aft schl,found out how much she rly meant to euu.so i seriously hab to jux gib up cos no matter how i try,euu will stiu not b mine if it doesn belong to.i seriously doubt guys in future...i didn learn my mistake...wad fish did was excactly e same as euu,only ur's is mre painful..

yea,fish like my best fwen,mie and thn,a fwen.
euu...i oso dun wnt sae.aniwaes,i jux noe everytin tt euu dnt noe n will 4eva wnt noe.
fish didn rly did so much wif mue.euu did.
fish didn make as much empty promises as euu did.

thn,one day,i hab to give up on him.burnt our things.includin gifts.
euu...i hab to burnt so many tings.specially when euu got so many impacts on mue.
i took about 6 mth to get over fish...euu..idk..eapecially aft wad i allowed.. mayb i cnt put it down...? idk...n i oso dunno was eu mean by" dun regret wad euu regrett"...?

i had finally trust guys..but wrecked...hais...hate flirts..not lyk euu dunno liddat..haix....D':

in schl,loads of peepo touched the pinch-ed area...ouch~pain...damn it,tmr hab to go audition..smr my throat not feeling well..go cought...cos of li keat nia!!tsk...

damn damn damn...thn bathe n sudd dizzy.zzz,cnt c anitin except white.thn..zzz....slight fever..came @ e wrng time nia...hais..another sleepless nite.. euu was rite bout the lobster ting,n euu stiu did it..hais...

when will guys be different??