生气。讨厌。

ugh!!!!!!
讨厌讨厌讨厌。。。walao~好不容易才有这个机会弄他的。却被他的‘好’朋友搞杂了。 也是他，。。好过分。。。那只有他才可以操控我，我也只能被他弄。没有任何反驳的机会。walao～连他也这样。

我大番薯啦!!!
我大白痴啦!!!
我。。。 算了。 说了也没用。干吗要在意。。。？

想发泄有不知要说什么好。
这感觉。。。这压力。。。就是当时回割自己的理由。它回来了。。。

我也不想啊～ 但是，。。。好难受。那感觉真地很难受。他赔偿的方法就是让我打他。可是。。。他不明白我为什么下不了手。 我以为了解我的人会明白。。。可是他也不明白。我又不能说出来。要付出的代价是很惨重的。。

我到底该怎样啊？！好烦！好烦！好烦！！！还有谁可以去找呢？没有了。。。领悟到要找一个知心朋友很难。。。超级难。。。又再次的感到

－失落
－无助
－没用
－白痴
－压力


。。。 说出来也没用。。。












-later-



ok..i was being ... neva mind.aniwaes.i cheered up.no use cutting aft when dere's oready cuts on it.=.='' jx nw when i was so~ agitated,i dunno y,bt i jux stuff my earpiece into my ear and blast the music.then i grabbed a pillow and sit on my chair and....start crying and blogging n msning. O_o i jx started crying n cnt stop.-.-'' @ least no one saw.hehe...thn found out so many songs can describe my feeling. is like,...kena sold out liddat. aiya~ i dunno la.dunno hw to x-plain. thn i slowly calm down n thn i started blogging again n cheered up.shouldn hav been liddat jx nw. feels lyk i'm sum kind of despo freak liddat. >< my behaviour is unacceptable.lol. new remedy:

tings u wil nd:
-earpiece
-music*ur hp*
-pillow
jx do wad i do. 100% quaratee.warranty: come to mie.^^ i'll try n help.but of cos,u nid to trust mie.

k,thn sms to apolo. o both of dem.lol.tot dey wld say tings like:
its too late to apologise~
its too late~~

mayb i'm jx paranoid-.-'' thn aft a long long long time,thn one of them reply mie. lol,offered tt i cn beat him as much as i want. haha~ vry funny.lyk i will. cnt bring myself todo that.sides i not as violent and,y shld i kill my very own cells??!gee~ man...i wanna change bk to the old old arrangement.sitting arrangement. tt was the most fun time in one whole yr...mayb nt yet a year..erm..8months.tt time got yuan ye,carlisle,emmett and jarryl.lmao~ jarryl vry quite thought. but tt's oso the time when my results fell down n down n down...T^T. hais hais hais! eh! ltr carlisle n emmett bully ppl again.neva mind,mie n yuan ye noe hw to tacklethem.but~ now is ethelin.neva mind,ethlin althought small,but she damn fierce u noe.especially when she's slpin. O.o hais hais...oi,nxt time during other lessons mie..neva mind. Oops~ now ms martin oso got my link..muz stay low low low low low low low low. thw whole..lookin @ her..she hit the flow,it the flow so gonna go low low low~..

guk! singing again.lol,my voice changed!! into some kind of ugly sound.like i voice brkin liddat! hey! i'm a 100% girl ok?! voice voice comeback to mie!!!