i'm scared....

i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared...

i'm scared of that tom... i tried vry hard not to tink bout it...but i juz cant.his disgusting msn jux kip popping out of my mind like it desperately need mie to see its there!!ugh! make mie blind. make it go away! wad m i goin doin? i'm desperate. day by day,i juz b com even more emo-ier.

thn,i apologize to emmett oready. i made out my first stap.bt he didn respond or reply.do he have to be so angry...? fine....for 2 nites...i didn slp...again...for tis... tis time luckier, didn get pimple....thn today on bus slept...finally slept. had a nightmare. cried in my sleep...woke up n found my bus stand reach ler. alighted.

class...hais... class... wnt to wash off bt cnt.don wnt wash off bt oso cnt...

reality, isit cruel or isit sweet?
why jux cant some ppl be straght4ward...bt y do we dnt wnt to hear?
reality suxz....

cuttin,after all,seems like a good way to relief stress after all.it doesn even have caffine...

I DONT WANT TO HOLD ON ANY LONGER! I DONT WANT... NO MORE BREATHE...I WANNA JUZ COLLAPSE IN A HEAP AND CRY...LIKE A BABY. THN,I WILL STAND UP AGAIN.BUT WHO CN PULL ME UP IN THIS DARK NOWHERE?

i want to run away frm all this... somewhere else. anywhere. heaven? hell? no~ i nt goin off. i need to b up... bt now... i'm drained... totally drained...how did i end up like this...?how?